Former One Direction star Zayn Malik has revealed he had a eating disorder whilst in One Direction.
The singer has penned a self titled autobiography, and spoke about issues he faced during his years in the X Factor band.
The Sun is reporting that the ‘PILLOWTALK’ singer revealed that he’d “go for days – sometimes two or three days straight – without eating anything at all,”.
“I have come to terms with since leaving the band… that I was suffering from an eating disorder,” he wrote.
“It got quite serious, although at the time I didn’t recognise it for what it was.”
Zayn eventually quit the group in March 2015, swiftly then dumping ex-fiancée Perrie Edwards by text. He also shared this thoughts and feelings about being in One Direction, revealing he felt he had no control over anything in this life, triggering the dangerous relationship with food.
“Food was something I could control, so I did,” he wrote.
He continued: “I had lost so much weight I had become ill. The workload and the pace of life on the road put together with the pressures and strains of everything going on within the band had badly affected my eating habits.”
He glosses over the split in the book, only briefly mentioning Little Mix, but focuses on his battle with ADHD after being diagnosed as a child and talks about his struggles with anxiety – which led to him cancelling his debut UK solo performance in June.
“On the morning of the 2016 Capital Radio Summertime Ball, an anxiety attack hit me like a f***ing freight train. I felt sick. I couldn’t breathe.
“The idea of it totally freaked me out and I was paralysed with anxiety.
“This overwhelming fear just kicked in out of nowhere, bringing with it a s***storm of self-doubt.
“When my management team came over to see what was wrong, I was on total psychological lockdown.
I would make a move to walk out of the house, to get into a car that would then drive me to Wembley, but I could only manage a few paces before I hit an imaginary wall.
It stopped me in my tracks, and I would have to sit down again.”
The Fader previously revealed an extract from his new book, which you can read below…
“When I’d finally finished recording Mind of Mine, I realized I had put down forty-eight songs. I couldn’t believe we had so many. It was a nightmare choosing the final list, especially because all the songs meant a lot to me, and I procrastinated as much as I could before making my decision.
In the end, it all came together; the songs chosen for the album spoke for themselves.
“I’d been listening to a lot of tracks by the Beatles when I was working on it. I had really got into some of their more psychedelic stuff, like ‘Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds’ from the 1967 album Sergeant Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band.
The piano chords at the start of ‘Fool for You,’ and the guitars, were inspired by the Beatles’ sound…I like to draw on the influence of all sorts of music and artists.”
Zayn’s new autobiograph ‘Zayn’ is out today (November 1).